What I've Been Up To

Wow! I had an okay weekend. After cleaning house Friday night so I wouldn't have to do it Saturday, I started having Braxton Hicks. It didn't last very long, thank goodness. Then I started having heartburn that is still going on today. Saturday I tried teaching MG how to read, but she lost interest very quickly. She wanted to play her computer game that I showed her last week. Great mommy! But I figured next time I could use that as a bribery, if she reads the cards I made her for about 30 minutes or so, then she can get on the computer. Why didn't I think of that Saturday? I think it's because I really didn't want to do it myself so why should I make her do it? Sunday was church and then we came home and cooked hot dogs on the grill. Yes, that added to my heartburn. Sunday night we had watermelon and music out in our church parking lot. Even though I do not eat watermelon, it was fun. I love listening to our praise band. They are GREAT!! Yesterday I packed MG's and mine and daddy's bag for the hospital. Now if I can get Bill to put the baby car seat in, I will be good to go. I have a strong feeling this one is going to come early. MG was 3 weeks early, so why shouldn't this one? Even though my doctor said I could go full term, I just know with school starting back soon and me being stressed out, something will happen. I will be ready, though. Today we woke up and got breakfast at Burger King. Then MG and I went to the park in Alabaster, ate breakfast, and played until time for the 10:00 movie. We watched Babe, which she loved. She talked most of the way through it, just asking those little toddler questions. Since we've been home, she's been playing while I tutored 2 boys, 1 hour each. She plays really well when I am tutoring. I am very thankful for that.

Oh yeah, yesterday I got an e-mail from a friend to join Facebook and so I did. I signed up thinking that I was just going to sign in so I can keep up with my friends. Well, I signed up yesterday morning and in between all of my chores I found myself on my computer, all the way up to 10:00 lastnight. It was a busy day on FB because a lot of my friends, old and new, were commenting me left and right. It was sooo much fun. So I guess I will be juggling myself in between my blog, FB, family, and quiet time with the LORD, in no particular order, while I still have the time. I can do it!!

Still Growing in Christ,
Tanya

A Morning of Silence

I am sitting at our church answering the phone for our secretary, who is out on vacation. The phone has only rung twice, and one of those phone calls was from my husband calling to check on me. I can tell it's going to be a slow morning since I have already been here an hour and a half and only 2 phone calls. The church building is quiet, which gives me time to catch up on some much needed reading and praying. I am really enjoying my quiet time. I do miss my little family, but at the same time it is nice to have some time to myself. Who doesn't need just a little time to themselves?

How likely is it that the number of bad days a person has is directly related to the missed days of quiet time and time alone with God? I’ve been horrible about my quiet time lately, but today I have a chance to make up for it. I've had some pretty stressful days as of late so I am pleased to be working today. I do not think that God is “paying me back” or disciplining me (although this may very well be true) but that I continue to fall farther away from His holiness the more time I spend away from Him. Now I have a chance to catch up, almost.

Does God let me fall away to teach me a lesson or show me how dependent I am upon Him? I think these things are certainly true but I also believe that my sinful nature does not want to be close to God. It is more comfortable to do things of the flesh — especially since that is what I have known for so many years. I am comforted by the fact that I recognize this and dislike the distance between God and I. I want to be close to Him — which fights against my sinful nature. I am so deprived and incapable of good, it is reassuring to know that God loves me no matter what. He will always be there for me to pick me up when I fall. Again, He isn’t doing this out of jealousy or mind games — He disciplines me because He is my Father for eternity. He wants me to be the woman that He knows I can be. It is incredibly comforting to know that He is in charge and will instruct me in the right ways in all situations.

Still Growing in Christ,
Tanya